Thursday, October 16, 2008

school is destroying my creativity and curiosity

I believe that for people that think too much in general, school is pretty much a damper on excess creativity. For instance, reading for school has always gotten in the way of my actual reading. Now what I am noticiing is that with my mind all occupied with organic chemistry and neuroscience etc etc in the quantities they feed it to me, there's not room for anything else, even speculation about those topics.

Example: in neuroscience we are learning about the visual system. In high school, that would have generated a lot of interesting anatomical and philosophical questions in my mind. Now, I am so overwhelmed with just the data fed to me that I don't find myself extrapolating off of it mentally at all. I don't think beyond becuase it's alreadfy hard enough to swallow most of what there is in front of me.

Also, in high school I thought about philosophy and theoretical physics literally like al the time. Now I barely ever think about either because my mind is so cluttered with cyclohexane conformations and convolutions of multidimensional probability distributions of functions of random variables. Those things are interesting too, but given that they have been discovered and fairly thoroughly exhausted, I really don't think about anything original ever.

It's one frustrating thing about school here. I only have so much mental capacity, and school takes up all of it. There's no room left over for creativity or original questions. There's not even room enough for everything I have to know for school. For days on end, I think of nothing intellectually interesting or unique. I am becoming boring or something.

It's really quite tragic. Maybe I should read another Brian Greene book or something in my loads of spare time.

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